I will never be good enough at jiu-jitsu. And that’s a beautiful thing.
So I was reading about the boy who promoted himself to brown belt (low expectations btw) and I was thinking about development, and upper limits. So this man values the colour of the belt round his waist, he values it so much that he forgoes the ‘normal’ structure of BJJ but moreso, he forgoes the years of knowledge he’d gain through his purple belt. That struck me as extremely sad.
That brought me to thinking about my own development as a 1 year blue belt. If Iwas able to wake up tomorrow and have a black belt round my waist, would I be happy? Would you be? I bet none of us would because we’re not gaining the 5-10 years worth of learning that our journey has in store for us. I then thought, is there any achievement or belt that could sate my thirst for growth and my answer was no, there isn’t one and there never will be one. I’ll always be on this journey, it has no end, and that’s not just beautiful, it’s life affirming.
Also, I think if you have an end in sight, or a level you’ll see yourself at as a final destination, that can harm your motivation. Satisfaction is the death of desire. So, while I’ll never reach that finishing line, I’ll never be happy with the level I’m currently at. Again, that is my motivation and it keeps me honest. I know one thing though, every day I turn up, I’m better than I was yesterday. And so is everyone else. I thank them for pushing me and testing me at every turn — and hope they feel the same. Onwards, together, with no end in sight.